Nobody else but me.

Feb 9, 2010

Insomnia? = a medical condition in which you have difficulty sleeping.

I have insomnia lately which I feel extremely unhappy and depress bout it.
Thinking bout insomnia. I think the last time i had insomnia is when SPM is around the corner where I was struggling hard to sleep or to study. I even seems to "bei guai zhak" due to that.
and as far as i remembered it was really very torturing too.

Seriously, LIM BEH sangat san fu..
and when i CAN FINALLY sleep. I wake up damn fast. =/
*singing how could this happen to me~~ *

Okay. Things have not been going well in my degree life.
The road seems so hard to continue.

Since I came to Kampar last year, never had I miss home that much.
never had I wants to go back home that much.
Never had I feel so miserable and sad this much.
I have to admit that I am a very hard-to-adapt-situation kind of people.
In this Week 2 & 3 is really the worst week ever in Kampar.
Never thought that my life will be like that.
I never imagine my another thinking will lead to this. (shall not elaborate)

Anyhow, I think i destruct myself. This is all caused by myself.
If i were to be selfish enough, this might not happen to me.
Okay, or i might die as well . but not as painful as this.

Anyhow, I have learn my lesson.
Well, there s nothing much that can be done or mend or to speak. Because it happenED.
and the only thing I can do is only accept, forget and get over it.

But i think my thinking is a little bit weird. I am not sure if this is the right way to be strong.
But definitely, i will try my very best to live better.
somehow the pain is still here. because i am a human being with feelings.

Jan 29, 2010

Dad : You look thinner. Your cheeks seems "suk" in. (means thinner)!
Like no fleshh..
Me : HARGHH?? You didnt see me one week only worr..
Dad : . . . . .
Me : NO..!! is because my eyes "zhong" jo..
Dad : OH. REALLY ARR? why zhong??
Me : Yea.. My eyes was itchy. So i "scratch". . . .

The revenge is back to me. But as far as i remembered, I was still being good.
Now I know what hurt means. the feeling. the twisting and the jumping heart of mine.

Smiling to sleep became getting wet then sleep.

Jan 28, 2010

T 0 0 0 N N N N Y A A A ! !

Jan 28, 2010

tau tak.
hari ini cuma satu kelas.
tutorial account. pukul 8 pagi.
wake up reluctantly. and my sleep wasn't good. I had a hard night yesterday.
woke up 5678987654 times and realize its not time yet. *yawns*

singing... "I call myself to sleep again tonight... because i cant hold youu tight...."
anyway. My ORIGINAL tutor said that this week TEMPORARY tutor will replace her for one week. and guess what?

She looks like TONYA - L WORD. Awwawww...
She is beautiful. but when she spell the word T.A.I.L.O.R.E.D.
I immediately thought of Tonya. and the dream. ewkk..
but too bad i cant find that picture.

This scene(the dream) kept playing in my mind.

She is a bit Indian-Punjabi!
but of course she looks much more pleasant than Tonya's in the dream la..
The way she talks and stand and the confidence she have.
I like her more than my original tutor. HOWWW!?
:/

Jan 27, 2010

it was a long Monday. .

Jan 27, 2010

Not to mention that my class ends at 8PM in the night. It was a freaking tiring day.

Is TIRING enough to just think that class will end that late.

okay. the story actually goes this way..
I apply car sticker using Queen's car plate number. (her sister one i think)
She herself apply using her own dunno what black lady or something 's plate number. using her own account.

So happen that my account get the car sticker. Okay. so she was so eff ing happy.
and the red tag people just bullied this two little kid.. JUST LIKE THAT.
WTF. i am lazy to say whyy... but the conclusion is we FAILED to get approved to get this eff car sticker. is like. why like that?

the rules state that is not transferable.
I understand what it means? I KNOW ENGLISH OKAY. AND I ALSO STUDY LAW. CHIUU!!
(tau la cuma studied a little.)
not transferable. you people said not transferable from account to account?
WE DIDNT? WE DIDN'T BREACH THE RULES?
i was just demanding to change car PLATE NUMBER. DOUBLE WTF! !
You all sendiri didnt state that precisely or correctly?
THE RULES DIDN'T SAY CANNOT TRANSFER CAR PLATE NUMBER ALSOO....
TRIPLE WTF.

oh so what if i m a rich kid and change car as i like every week? HOW HOW? HOW??

Just because the car owner s name is not LEONG then you have to treat me like what?
BIG CRIMINAL? I DID SOMETHING BAD. OH BAD. I BURNT YOUR HOUSE? KILL/MURDER PEOPLE??

NO RIGHT?? ah deng! !
macam police interrogation.

now thinking back..
IF it was my own saga also sure he will ask me to call my "gu jiong"! because the name is not L.E.O.N.G!

Isn't the rules shoud be . .

#1. I register for it.
#2. I get my luck?! and it was successful?
#3. I pay.
#4. and get my eff ing sticker??
#5. I can come in to campus comfortably? okay. she.

WHY DO WE NEED TO LET YOU RED TAGS VERIFIED IT OR SOMETHING??
CHIUU! ! !
okay. so obviously. PHAILED lor. then the queen so mang.
she said "ngo mer chung yi hui lor" (i dont like him lorrr) for dunno 65445678765432 times.
and then like that lor..
pity us =( walked all the way from Block G to C. and then let people bully.

now think a little. What if next time in the future when i really need them?
Will they block me? aww.. takutnya! X_x

Anyway la. then back to Block G- library to "study"
end up became DAY DREAM GANG.

cukup masa. pergi kelas lor..
pukul 8? balik rumah lor..
so unlucky.. my dear friend fall and get injured. *guilty*
and my pedal . . just get off like that.
aish.. clean her wound and stuff also late ady.
then dinner. and itu QUEEN P said wan to play L4D and is a must.
so i was being kind not to make her more sad. (previously lar)
Jadi aku pergi lor..
tim chi my genes so terukk.
cannot play such games i think. i feel VERY hot at that time. and i started to sweat and feel dizzy. EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE.

and i just let those whatever zoombies attack me or something. IDK.
then aku macam those small kid who wants parents to fetch her home.
but obviously, it was my brother who fetch me back. aww..
when i see him, as if his head got those bright light. HOHOHO
sangat angelic-looking. *really glad that he is here sometimes* =D

balik rumah. shower.
fall on bed and sleep.
sangat unbelievable lor. i didn't even on my laptop that night.
guess i was dead tired. *yawns*

L O N G MONDAY RIGHTTT.........

Jan 21, 2010

Class was at 8. Initially was SO reluctant to wake up because it was raining. and afraid that class will be just 30 minutes since is first tutorial class.
BUT THEN suddenly PN asked me to fetch her. so okayyy.... went.
As imagined. the class really ends after 40 minutes.
I SHOULD BE COMPLAINING.
i woke up so damn early just for a 40 minute class! *yawns*
BUT HORGH! I FEEL WORTH LOR.
is because i think this tutor is awesome.
DIA orang melayu! tetapi sangat suka dia. xD
She seems so kind. flexible. and nice! I think my ACCOUNT got hope dy!

I KNOW MY ACCOUNT TERUK! BUT SOMETIMES THE ONE WHO TEACH ALSO IMPORTANT WAN RIGHTT?? LIKE PREVIOUSLY... *SHUTS*
So horgh.. i really think this semester will be much better. because so far, most of the lecturer or tutor is (OK)!
AT LEAST. THEY DONT LOOK LIKE THOSE WHO NGAM NGAM GRADUATE AND LOOK BLUR MUKA BOLEH DIBULLY AND MUKA I TAK TAU AJAR!!

and horgh. Most of my lecturers all have English nick name. .
Like LEONARD CHARLES GERARD!! so i was hoping that i will have HANDSOME OR PRETTY NICE HOT lecturer.
My wish did not come true. =.='''
tetapi i dapat satu "gay" lecturer! HOHO.
i better stop. or i will be sued. xD

anyway. class ended. and when i was driving. on my way back .
i realize this world is so beautiful~~
i stop my car and sat there listening to ALAN THAM s song and admire the water and the hill.
~~(almost 15 minutes) I am emotional sometimes! O.o~~

when i was about to leave. the sun appeared and the water looks "nice" Idk how to describe.
But Kampar is actually a nice place! =) and actually our campus behind the new block there is really AWESOME! is like those little "beach" ! ! I will take picture next time!

Jan 18, 2010

D E G R E E L I F E

Jan 18, 2010

My new chapter of life...
will begin in less than 12 hours.
My Degree life. finally. i can say myself a university-student. HAHA
because, when people usually ask. I will explain faster that i am actually not "tai hok sang" just foundation....

Anyway back to Kampar here.
I wish to have a new life. like really. a new life.
Like,
#1. sleep early everyday? 1am the latest!
#2. Make eating prunes everyday a habit !
#3. Study everyday. Okay i know this is like so hard. but at least revise a little.
#4. Save money.
MUST CYCLE TO CAMPUS WHEN MY CLASS IS EARLY AND ENDS AT NIGHT.
#5. Exercise! to make myself healthier. Like gym two times per week.
#6. Do not waste too much time online.
#7. Must not abandon my guitar. I payed so much last time and now i am giving it out.! such a waste. I want myself to at least have some skill that can't be buy. =D
* am i thinking too much*
#8. OH OH OH!!!!!!! THIS IS THE HARDEST I THINK.
*read THE GREATEST BOOK IN THIS WORLD every night. *
*GET CLOSER TO HIM DAY BY DAY*
#9. Treat people around me better.

WHOPS! IS LIKE RESOLUTION!
LMAO! i wonder if i can achieve 1/4 of it. i doubt myself so much!
But really. I wish to change.
I am getting weaker day by day. I can feel it.
I don wanna die so early. ter think of someone said, "old woman trapped in a young lady body"
HAHA. and guessed i am.

Jan 15, 2010

I wanted to upload pictures first at first.
But i realize the line is too sucky. and i am not in the good mood to be patient.
So i ve decided to keep it all to myself. and will just briefly summarize my whole semester break.
SINCE I AM ALREADY NOW IN KAMPAR GETTING READY TO HECTIC LIFE.
Before talking bout my holiday.
Today went back to campus to get bill and stuff. sigh~~
The campus is growing.. from Block A to Block H
Seriously they should build at least escalator or provide shuttle van service or something FOR FREEEE to go from block to block!
people like me who always feel sick and energyless really feel like dying.
WHAT IF NO PEOPLE FETCH ME TO SCHOOL? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CYCLE / WALK FROM WESTLAKE TO BLOCK H / I !?
because most of my classes will be in the new building! WTF!
DOUBLE TRIPLE WTF! WHEN COME TO MY OH DAMN TIMETABLE.
UTAR 'S - NO MONEY NO TALK!
You haven pay? Don even dream to get your oh damn class!
kononnya will call me to assist me! NOT EVEN ONE DAMN CALL! DENG!

and to my surprised. my course- FINANCIAL ECONOMIC!
ONLY 5 PEOPLE WHO TOOK THIS COURSE.
BUT IF I M NOT MISTAKEN, 11 NEW STUDENT WILL BE TAKING THIS COURSE.
SO MEANING IN YEAR 2, I THINK MY CLASS WILL ONLY HAVE 16 STUDENTS!
OH HOW GREAT! SUCH A SPECIAL COURSE! BWAHAHA!
*whops! sorry for the caps*

anyway.about my holiday.

Okay.
26/27/28 December -
I went to KL first. with brother and his gf!
blog on that before already.

31/1/2 January -
Friends came over and slept-over from Penang.
Countdown? Can say didn't countdown! patheticly just sat at MCDonald and suddenly saw fireworks from the other side. thats all! but because of that day. where Yen ling was also there. then came up with the idea of going to Penang for one day.

3rd January -
Early morning Yen Ling came my house and then we drive to Penang.
WHOOT! but then because we do not know how to go here or there.
end up. just went to Gurney Plaza to have a walk. makan there. and just went opposite to have a view of the beach. I was like a kid kept wanting to go to the beach to have a walk.
BUT THEN FAILED. BECAUSE ERM. IDK WHY. I GUESS IS RAINING. AND IT WILL BE TOO DANGEROUS IF WE GO BACK TOO LATE. OHH! NICE TRIP ANYWAY!

11/12 th January -
Supposedly I should go back to Kampar to register and all. But since our shop rest and dad decided to go Penang. SO WHY NOT, RIGHT?
like so RARE to have chance where all of us (family members) get to go on vacation together?
so went to Penang. wHEEE!
definitely much more fun! HAHA.. whops! No offense.
Is just because dad knows all the road and all. So i don have to be worried.
I will just cut it short. I FINALLY TRIED PARACHUTE!
OH MY GOD! is so freaking fun! HEEEE . .
Okay. Now i would love to share the picture here.

13/14 th January -
Went to Malacca with friends and bro and his gf!
We were given the permission to drive there and obviously brother was the one who drove.
THANK GOD for letting me know AH WONG.
haha. HE IS THE GPS FOR US in MALACCA!
really thanks to him! So we get to eat all the kononnya famous food in Malacca.
The famous chicken rice ball. cendol? ( really very sweetening) xD and the satay celup, Capitol Satay? The only thing we missed is the nyonya food.

Besides eating those famous food, we WALK almost the whole "town"!
SEEING THOSE HISTORICAL BUILDING.
I am serious! Then bla bla. took picture and stuff.
Then went back to A FAMOSA. wow. it seems like another world.
wanted to go Cowboy Town. but failed.
then next day went to Water world. hmm.. not that fun lor.
The place is too big. one "slide" is far from one another.
TSKKKKK!! okay la. but still enjoyed the day! =D

ONE AND ONLY PICTURE OF OUR GPS,AH WONNGG!!
he refuses to take picture. ZzzZzZ

MY PATIENT MOOD IS GONE. DON WAN TO WAIT FOR THE SLOW SLOW BLOGGER ANYMORE!

Till then, bye people!